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Sometimes it's better not to argue. Sometimes it's better not to speak at all. Sometimes it's better to just smile and silently say to yourself we'll see. Someday we'll see...

Ice Cream...yumyum

(don't peek at the answers before choosing...)

In a relationship, what flavor of ice cream would best describe you?
Mocha
Ube
Mango
Vanilla
Chocolate
Melon
Strawberry
Macapuno

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Meaning:
Mocha - seloso/selosa
Ube - matapat
Mango - sweet
Vanilla - mahilig sa sex
Chocolate - serious
Melon - mahirap mahalin
Strawberry - loving person who can do anything for love
Macapuno -manhid



When I first saw the question, I was choosing among mocha, melon and strawberry and for no concrete reason at all, I chose MELON

Mahirap daw ako mahalin!

Of course, this ain't an accurate test. But the results we've got seem so precise. And I can't deny it in anyway. Even my dad agreed with it, citing the statement I so often tell my family when the topic of boyfriends and marriage comes up.
No wonder walang nagtatagal at nagtitiyaga sa akin...ü
Anyway, I know the REASON and the reasons for this and I ain't ready yet to take it away...

Oh well...that's my flavor,what's yours?ü

HapPy hAlL0weEn

Trick or treat?!

Oh yes, I miss going around our village, wearing my halloween costume while I follow a line of kids that knock on every house with halloween decors. It's funny though that in all those years I've joined, there was only one scare. Most were generous enough to give us candies and stuffs. But now, I'm big enough for that. I'm also too old for halloween parties. Yeah right, we can still create halloween parties suited for our age, modified in such a way that the celebration would definitely be considered for adults only. But since my "pareng" organizer has gone to the U.S. now, and most of my friends around the neighborhood has moved to different locations, I don't even need to expect any invitation to come to any party anymore.

But since it's halloween season, let me pour out my thoughts in relation to the season.

I've heard dozens of stories, ranging from those told by friends, mentors, relatives, etc, etc, both passed-on information and first hand ones. But being a little bit skeptical about this, I don't really know whether to believe them or not. I've never really believed in ghosts....before. But now I'm a little bit doubtful. As a kid, I would be afraid of horror movies especially that one movie about a dead girl in a cabinet (gives me the creeps back then that I wouldn't dare open any cabinet, not even our refrigerator) But that was way back when I was 7 or 8. After recovering from that, nothing dead could give me the creeps anymore.

Anyway, life moved on with people around me saying they see or they feel, etc,etc. And the characters in their stories would range from ghost spirits to tikbalang to tiktik to duwende to manananggal. I had a friend and a relative who believes that there is a dwarf in their backyard. Each of our helpers has their own story to tell. There would even be stories from a longtime "kasambahay" of my relative about the spirit of my late grandmother visting her. Even my "lola" has her own experience in their province with creatures that fly at night.

But all my life, I haven't seen one. I would even go to places where my friends said they've seen a pugot na ulo. I would even enter the haunted houses in the neighborhood just to see if it's really haunted. I would even ride my bike down to the vacant lot where a murdered woman was thrown and see whether she would show her spirit to me. But nil.

Thus, I would wonder sometime whether this is just a figment of their imagination. I have a wild imagination too. And I can create as many creatures in my head as they believe are existing.

Is there really such a thing as "laman lupa" or creatures from a different side of this world? Just recently, one person drowned while shooting a horror film at a distant place. People living near the area said there are "engkantos" in the place. Same was how some people explained the death of the son of Rey Langit.

Are there really spirits roaming around? Spirits who don't know they're dead? Spirits who want revenge or as they say "mga kaluluwang hindi matahimik"?? But if that's the case then why is it that 99% of murder cases are solved? Can't the victims themselves do anything about it?

Now as step by step, I start to open my third eye, also called the pineal eye, I started to see shadows, white lights that pass by a moment and never return. I've seen person pass by one of our rooms. I've seen a person sitting at the sala or standing outside in the street. And yet at a second glance, there really is nothing.

Still, I always have an explanation. It can either be in the angle of light, reflection, etc. It could be that our mind has been used to a particular event that whenever we see a thing associated to the presence of a person, it registers something that is not really there. It's hard to explain but there really is such a phenomena.

Spirits or ghosts could also be the makings of our guilt, conscience, or a mere memory that has been stuck inside our heads (especially events that we have experienced when we were still little kids.)

But what I couldn't explain is the fact that there are stories about people visiting their friends or loved ones right at that point in time when they are actually already dead.

Hmm...makes me wonder...