It's within us...

My thought for the day

In this world, there always seem to be two opposing vibes. We have also been given the mentality that certain things are generally good or generally bad. But if we just come to think of it, a lot of these things are actually in a neutral sense. It all depends on our reaction to it and it all depends on how we make use of it that assigns it to either the positive or the negative realm. Love, Hatred, Success, Failure, Poverty, Wealth, Happiness, Sadness, Peace, Arguments, and the list goes on....

Though each word seem to carry a good (bad) meaning, it's not really how it takes effect. Even the most seemingly positive word can lead to destruction of oneself. And even the most negative word can lead one to a bright tomorrow. Funny but true...

Nagngangalit

Patuloy pa rin ang nasindihan...

Pagkiskisin mo ang dalwang bato at unti-unti kang makagagawa ng apoy

Apoy na may dalang init na nagpapagaan ng pakiramdam

Ngunit kailangang mag-ingat sa mga elementong makakahalo nito

Dahil ang isang elementong hindi nababagay sa apoy

Ay maaaring maging dahilan ng isang pagsiklab

Kailangan ring bantayan

Dahil ang apoy na ito ay maaaring lumaki

Ito ang apoy na makamandag, may kakayanang matupok ang lahat lahat

Hanggang sa abo na lang ang matitira

Ngunit maghanda at maging listo

Sapagkat hanggang hindi pa tuluyang napatay

At may ningas pa ring natitira

Maaari pa rin itong magliyab

So addicted

This is my second time to watch Moments of Love

And though that's the case, I still cried a housand tears while watching, as if I watched it for the frst time. And I know I can watch it for a hundred times with the tears still flowing at the hundredth viewing (same as City of Angels ü).

But what fascinates me is my realization this time that this movie actually supports my theory on love. The principle, however, wasn't explicitly stated but rather implied in
Marco(Dingdong)'s words. I don't really know if I was only deriving it based on my own
created perspectives. But if I was the writer of the script, I would have used the same
lines because had Marco said my very theory, the movie would be one hell of a crap. It would then be the final breath of hopelessly romantics, the end of Romeo and Juliet's reputation and of every surviving love story, the beginning of misery for all who believed that the right man is the loved one...

Away from Modular...

It's fun to have a ride outside Metro Manila, "away from the hustle bustle of city life" according to my mom. One great way to dE-stress oneself. Add to that the joy of having a baby who laughs, stands, walks, and observes his surroundings at half a year old!!

Aside from being away from the thoughts of accounting for one day, I was able to think and reflect once more...the kind where one thought flows at a time...

"We learn our virtues from the friends who love us
Our faults from the enemies who hate us
We cannot easily discover our real character from a friend.
He is a mirror, on which the warmth of our breath impedes
the clearness of the reflection."

This is one of the quotes I get from my daily subscription to the forwarded messages of my friends (who are so rich they're always unlimited ü) What made me choose this quote to be posted in my blog is the fact that this is so apparent in my life(Now I know bakit ako mahilig maghanap ng away). Yes, I'm still in search of my identity. And I can still remember all those days before when we're having a forum wherein each person is about to tell each one something positive and something negative about him/herself...and I haven't gotten any negative comment. Am I that good or are they just blind?

"....I told myself I'll never draw again. And I never did."
This was a line from Direk Joey Reyes' recount of his story when he was still a kid. It was about his real dream to draw. But because of a certain event in his life, he stopped to work his way towards that dream. Too bad I wasn't able to get the whole story word per word, thinking what he'll say will be just one of those tackless comments he gives the scholars. It will be the first time I would agree with him..."there are so many frustrations in life"
When I was analyzing my handwriting, I couldn't believe that I have frustrations. But after hearing his story and after some thought, I was able to see the truth behind my analysis. There are so many things I wanted to do and so many dreams I wanted to achieve but I was not able to do any. Instead I'm stuck with accounting modular and with people who claim themselves to be not boring. But come to think of it, I shouldn't really blame the modular or anybody else because if I really had the drive, I would have been able to do more than just accounting and I might not even need to choose and incur opporunity costs. Because as you can see, it's not really about the circumstances not giving us the chance. It's about ourselves not confronting the conflicts in life. It's about us not doing anything about it.

"Only one thing is constant in this world...and that is change"
People change PERIOD. Whether these changes are for good or not, we can't really tell. I've changed...a lot. And I somehow hate it because I believe I am not me anymore. By that, I mean I am not the person I once loved to be. I was that person who loved the chills, the thrills, the heights, the fast rides,the challenges, etc. But because of certain people who came into my life and because of certain situations I've been in, I have unconsciously changed. And now, I was able to look back and see why I want another motorcycle ride, why I was looking over the hills when everyone's stomach has turned upside down with that,etc,etc.
One thing's for sure though, once in a lifetime, someone will walk into our lives and will make such an impact that we are changed forever.
Indeed, I may change back to the person I once was because the change I've undergone was unconsciously done. But I may never be changed again in certain ways that someone has touched and I willingly and consciuosly changed.


People have suggested coffee, people have suggested tea, people have suggested apple, but none of it ever worked for me...
I was up at 7:20 am this morning and I still haven't felt the nudge of sleep on my shoulders. This was the very first time I went out on a trip and was wide awake on the way to our destination and back to my home...All through the works of nicotine! Now I know Nicotine is a better stimulant than Caffeine...no wonder, they are always wide awake...

Don't Speak....
I don't know why I started to blog again. I was about to leave this inactive because only two things happen when I let things out. It's either things don't turn out the good way that it was originally directed to OR things get worse. Either way, things go in the negative. So I thought sometimes (or make it often times), it's better to just shut up and don't speak at all. Maybe I just missed blogging...that's all.

Ikaw Pa Rin

(first finished composition)

Dala ko pa rin ang picture mo sa wallet ko
Suot ko pa rin ang singsing ng sumpaan natin
Tinatago pa rin ang mga text mo
Hinhintay pa rin bawat reply mo
Inaabangan ang pagtunog ng cellphone ko

Please lang, please naman
Tanong ko'y pakisagot lang
Ako'y nalilito't naguguluhan
Bakit ba naman
Hanggang ngayon ay ikaw pa rin
Ang laman ng isip at damdamin

Ang tatoo pa rin sa braso ko'y pangalan mo
Binabasa nang paulit-ulit mga sulat natin
Laman ka pa rin ng panaginip ko
Tanging sagot sa mga pangarap ko
Mukha mo pa rin ang naiisip-isip ko

Please lang, please naman
Tanong ko'y pakisagot lang
Ako'y nalilito't naguguluhan
Bakit ba naman
Hanggang ngayon ay ikaw pa rin
Ang laman ng isip at damdamin

Repeat (higher note)

Puso ko'y luluha at iibig ring muli
Ngunit mayroong isang bagay na hindi magbabago

CODA:
Dahil Ikaw pa rin, ikaw pa rin
Ikaw pa rin ang iibigin
Dahil ikaw pa rin, ikaw pa rin
Ikaw pa rin ang iibigin ko (2x)

Oks na oks pag Friday

To the tune of RJ Jimenez' "Miss Kita pag Tuesday"
(My Friday Song)

Everyday tayo ay nagkikita
Nagkikita lagi sa iskwela
Ang saya kapag recess at lunch break
Labas ka na ng classroom for my heart's sake
Yeah ey...yeah ey...yeah ey

Ganyan tayo almost everyday
Pero pag Friday
Kasama na kita

Oh Sunday, Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday
Ang saya ng araw pag dating ng Friday
I am with you lagi pag dating ng Friday
Pero sayang talaga di natin pwedeng gawing everyday
I love this day oh Friday
Enjoy ako pag Friday

Friday ang araw when we are togather
Ang saya-saya, sana Friday forever
Laging hinihintay ang ating uwian
Para sa walang humpay na kasiyahan
Who-ow, who-ow, yeah ey

Kumpleto talaga ang whole week ko
Dahil merong Friday
Na kasama kita

Oh Sunday, Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday
Ang saya ng araw pag dating ng Friday
I am with you lagi pag dating ng Friday
Pero sayang talaga di natin pwedeng gawing everyday
I love this day oh Friday
Oks na oks pag Friday

Kung nagtapat lang sana ako sa 'yo
Araw-araw ay magkasama tayo
Ang whole week ko
O anong saya

Oh Sunday, Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday
Ang saya ng araw pag dating ng Friday
I am with you lagi pag dating ng Friday
Pero sayang talaga di natin pwedeng gawing everyday
I love this day oh Friday
I love this day oh Friday
I love this day oh Friday

At isa pang dahilan
Kung ba't mahal ko ang Friday
Kasi naman...
Training day pag Friday
Training natin pag Friday
Training day pag Friday

AND I'M WITH YOU PAG FRIDAY

It's time for a cup of coffee

Oh yes I badly need a break...

From the head to toe compilation of school work everyday
From the 6 hours class hours each day (which soon will become 11 hours)
From advising my guy friends about things which I myself couldn't apply in real life
From making my girlfriends laugh every now and then
From the nightly PDA study and my amateur shot at composing songs
From studying people's behavior especially the different mechanisms that they unconsciously do
From psychoanalyzing my own self (nakakabaliw)
From writing stuffs that are not really posted (what's the use?)
From conducting an every now and then study for my second degree (wishful thinking...)


Oh yes I really need a coffee break right now...

I was really supposed to set aside coffee and all caffeinated drinks but I guess this is far much better than any alcoholic beverage consumption I've had

Gulp gulp....

Again, I'm ready to go