As young as 5 years old, I can remember hanging out with my brother and friends late at night outside our house, trying to spot some bats flying around.
Ever since I was a kid, a weakness teachers see in me is punctuality. With the flag ceremony at 7:30, the earliest time I could arrive at school 'round grade one is 8:00am...and that could go as late as 9+.
As I grew up, I learned that our bad personalities can actually be changed and so I put more effort and tried to be more prompt.
However, the thought that we are different individuals and such personality as being nocturnal is actually a part of our identity has hindered me from changing totally.
When I entered college, I came to realize that changing one's personality can actually be for one's own good most especially when we go to the field of work wherein we ourselves have to adapt to a new environment. And so I started to change. It was still hard especially with that morning class OBLICON (a law subject!) held at 7:00. But then I knew I had to change. Come the following terms, I have somehow adapted to this and I actually became more awake in the morning. Especially...last term.
But NOW.... now that i'm in a modular term...a term when our mind is supposed to be ùber focused on that course...now when every part of us had to be awake...my mind seemed to be sleeping and drifting to the world of dreams. My mind only wakes up whenever there's a joke, a trivia or a chika...
Why now? Why be back at being a night owl just when I need to be otherwise?
Is it because I really lack sleep due to reading tons and tons of photocopied readings?
Is it because my mind have been extremely exhausted from the memorizing and comprehending?
Or Could it be because I lost the very reason that made me want to wake up early each morning back then?
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